Excerpt from Sacrament of Light
Talk given by M. Nadine

“A clean heart create for me, God; renew in me a steadfast spirit.”  (Ps 51:12)

I want to deal with one of our most common sins where we can give the enemy a platform and that is the sin of unforgiveness.  Every Sunday and holy day we pray in the Creed, “I believe in one Baptism for the forgiveness of sins.”  Jesus took me to the Cross one time and said, “Look.  Look at My destiny.  I’m hanging here for the forgiveness of sins.  I’m interceding and asking the Father to forgive your sins on your behalf.  There is no justification in sin.” There is no reason that can justify anyone hanging onto sin because Jesus obtained the grace on the Cross for us to forgive any sins that have been done against us.  He has obtained that grace, and so we have the grace.  Only God forgives sins, so we need to ask for His love-power from on High.  “Please, Lord, give me the grace and power to forgive.”

We sing a song at home a lot, maybe you know it, “Change my heart, O God.  Make it ever true.  Change my heart, O God.  May I be like You.”  Not too very long ago, we were singing that song, and on the words, “May I be like You,” I had an image of Jesus and His Heart was literally broken.  I asked Him, “What is wrong?”  He said, “People really don’t want to be like Me.  They don’t want My Spirit to touch and change their heart to be like Mine.”  I had never heard of anyone not wanting to be like Jesus or not wanting to have His Heart, and so I asked Him, “Why don’t people want to have Your Heart, Lord?”  

One of the reasons He showed me was because then they’ll have to forgive “seventy times seven.”  He said, “Then they’ll have to love one another with no conditions.  They’ll be introduced into love at a deeper level when they have My Heart.  My Heart has sacrificial Love.”  It’s costly to have the Heart of Jesus Christ.

The German theologian, Dietrich Bonhoeffer, said that when Jesus bids a person to follow Him, He bids that person to come and die.  It means I must die daily so that Jesus can live within me.  I lay down my life, and Jesus picks up His in mine.  It’s so beautiful to know that Jesus did not come to call the virtuous, but He came to call sinners (Mt 9:13).  Each day He is calling us to come beyond where we are.  

In one way I think it looks like we’ll always be sinners, but the great consolation for me is that we are loved sinners.  We’re going to fall like children fall.  But if we’re little, when we fall, we really won’t get hurt.  Little children are so close to the ground that they really don’t get hurt.  Someone once said that the definition of a saint isn’t that they don’t fall, but a saint always gets up by the count of nine.  So let God call you beyond where you are today, into full holiness and sainthood.

“I will give you a new heart and place a new spirit within you, taking from your bodies your stony hearts and giving you natural hearts.”  (Ez 36:26)